Spiritual Poetry posted June 10, 2019

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Struggling with fears and fighting with your conscience

The Battle In Me

by jeSSaNN

The author has placed a warning on this post for violence.
Am I crazy in my head? I swear these voices won't let me rest.
They make me believe what they say and it scares me to know I feel this way.
Sometimes a whisper yet their words so perfectly clear. Leaving me hopeless and cradled in fear.
People say " She's gone insane."
But how could they know this mind game they play?
It's getting darker now as time ticks the night away. Before I know it I've already gone to the deepest, darkest place, rock bottom, you could say?.
Then deep down something like a light gently shows just enough. Perhaps a glimmer of hope? Something from above?.
I think it's too far to reach but still know it's there.
So I tell myself to fight.
Fight my way out of this darkness. For it does not define me.
Sad this is, I've created this mess. I allowed myself to go beyond the realm of insanity and now the demons want me dead.
Tugging and pulling I struggle for salvation.
As I pray out loud for God to forgive me for giving into temptation.
It's a battle now, a bloody war. A thirst for my blood and nothing more.
My own soul is at stake and I cannot give up now.
Father God help me. Please don't abandon me. Send me your armor, show me the light.
Keep these demons from taking my soul.
I beg of you. I can't do this alone. Not anymore.

This poem is a rare and special pick of mine.
It comes from somewhere real and thereâ??s was a time when I had felt this way. I write when My soul tells me even if itâ??s not always a happy time! It comes from somewhere real and to me thatâ??s the most important part of writing! Iâ??ve been a writer all my life since the age of 15. And writing was my outlet to my broken and cruel world I was exposed to.
Hopefully it inspires someone else to remember to never give up. Thanks
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